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Abandonment


 Shifting, twisting, spinning I whirl to see
 who has called my name.
 No one there.
 Not a single face.
 No one
 I recognize in the crowd
 I can rely on,
 seek shelter in,
 steal from without
 condemnation, borrow
 a dime to call my dying mother.
 A cluster of faces.
 Chatter of foot steps on the sidewalk.
 Untouching collisions of bodies with deliberate
 velocities in anarchistic rhythm stream with rude grace.
 And I stand still in the midst
 searching, causing the flow to compensate for my contrariety. Me
 the rock in the river,
 the stutter in the speech,
 the tasteless joke at the party. I
 have been called to halt and heed
 directly to a voice that has not shown itself
 but deceptively grabbed me by the shoulder.
 Now I stand alone desperately looking for the one
 who bid me hello. I responded quickly as I could
 and found no one but the throng.
 It is I who was requested and
 it is I who seeks company.
 Befuddled and disappointed I
 resume my course
 reassuming the step of nobody.
  
  
  
  
  
  
Copyright 1997 John Feissel. All rights reserved.